Day 7--Today is one week since Abbey's surgery and I woke up to Abbey making her distress noises--little cries in a sense but not really--very hard to explain unless you hear them. She was licking her paws. I am sleeping on the floor--mattress is on the floor with no frame and box springs so almost at her level. She is in a crate right where she can see me. I immediately opened the crate and felt her paws when she came out and they were soaked. I feel like I have been kicked in the stomach and about ready to vomit literally. The fear is horrible right now. That has been my greatest fear in this whole deal--not the surgery--not the recooperation--the fear that she will be no better than she was before BUT she has to be better and is because the fluid is flowing and the progression has stopped. As far as the symptoms of what she has been doing time will tell but she was sooooooooooooo miserable before this and from my post this has been going on a very long time. Right now I'm scared and feel like crying which as I type this I am starting.

Ok I call one of my people of my support group as I call them. :-) Her dog had this surgery 3 1/2 years ago and is doing well. She reasurres me that this is much too early for any changes AND I know this. I really do but you do go up and down with your emotions with this. One minute you're in tears and the next you're ok--well you have to be for them. Does them no good for you to be stressed out.

George calls neurologist to voice our concerns with the licking. They first want to rule out about allergy. When George starts telling me this on the phone I want to literally scream THIS IS NOT ANY --- DA-- ALLERGY. I heard that all her life. He calms me down--lol. Poor man is dealing with a menopausal woman again--lol. Up and down like a yoyo. I listen---hmmm yesterday I added rice to the chicken and yogurt. Hmmmm could she possibly be allergic to the rice? My head is playing tricks on me right now. What the heck--take her off the rice--gawd almighty here we go again. I have potatoes boiling in the pot now for potatoes, chicken and yogurt. Neurologist says put her back on the tramadol but only give 2 pills which I did and she is sleeping in her playpen. Thank god and I am typing my feelings on this blog. We're to call clinic in two days and give report. That is one thing I am very very pleased with Dr. Shores and all of the staff.

Well, the roller coaster is still going but at this time I'm going up instead of down like this morning. After George talked the neurologist I gave her two of the tramadol and she's been better this afternoon-evening. Even had her walking around a little bit in the kitchen and gave her some cheese on the floor and she ate it and took a couple of pictures. Also, she has stood up in the playpen a few times today and lets me know that she wants to get out and be held. So today is the first day really that I'm seeing a little positive and maybe she is recooperating a little. I know we still have a very long way to go. I'm still very concerned about the licking paw deal and of course with the tramadol that is no longer there but we are to call on thursday and give a report.