Day 11---Well, I wake up at 5 a.m. to Abbey licking etc. Take her outside and also decide to give her a dose of gabapentin even though its only been 6 hrs. since giving her her last nightly dose. Take her back into the bedroom and put her in the crate and I back to my mattress. She goes back to sleep in about 15 mins. Thats one thing doesn't take long for the meds to take effect. Unfortunately I toss and turn for over a hour but eventually do go back to sleep. Wake back up at 8:15 and get up. The whole house is up--George, 3 dogs and son Kevin. Give her her other meds of the sulfa trim for her UTI, omeprazole and the miconazole drops. I might add on the miconazole that we spilled some of it yesterday a.m. and I called my vet to get some more and what they have didn't match what was on the bottle so called Auburn U and come to find out that this is something that they compound. I ask if my compounding pharmacy here can make it and they said doubtful. One ingredient they probably would not have. My 2 options is for them to call my vet and they tell them were to order this one ingredient from in Atlanta or for them to mail it to me which I won't get until monday. Go with them sending it to me and hopefully we don't run out.

Kind of bummed out this morning--not depressed but just quiet and scared I guess you would say. Just gets me alot to wake up on some mornings and have her itching and licking--George reassures me this a.m. that it takes awhile for the syrinx to shrink etc. Normally I would feel better and do a little but still scared. I can't shake this scared feeling

The weather change today also. The last few days has been beautiful and sunny and today is cloudy and drizzly. I know the pressure changes has an effect on how they feel etc. so maybe thats it. I am going to start journaling and showing the weather on each day etc. to see the correlation.

Well, as I was typing that last paragraph I heard Abbey crying and of course ran down there and she was rubbing her head etc. Not going good on this day and what this all boils down to is the scared little girl hoping her dog will be ok through all of this. My stomach is in knots and my head feels like its spacey--hard to explain. Again, I know what I am feeling is being scared.

Its 1:40 p.m. and Abbey has been asleep most of the day. She did eat well this a.m. She has not had meds since about 5:15 a.m. this morning so as of right now its 8 1/2 hrs. I do not want to wake her as it will be over 8 hrs until the next dose too if she would have it now.

I don't know what my problem today is. I haven't been angry for over a week but today I'm mad. I'm mad at my old vet and still do not understand why she didn't pursue Abbey's symptoms. I'm angry that my dog has been in pain for a very long time. I'm not mad at myself thank god for that. How would I know. I'm not a doctor or vet. Do we put too much trust into our vets??? grrrrrr I'm MAD. I'd like to drive up to my old vet with her and say look at her and then my heart aches and the scared little girl always comes out.

I have figured out that Abbey's bad time is during the early morning-mid morning. For just having surgery she is doing remarkable and overall I'm very pleased. The reason I get down is just the fear of her not getting any better and I truly do not think that so I must stop this. Have to be more positive!!!! She's going to be much better and it will be before we know it!!!